This blog is buried or at least sleeping very deep

Enter this room with respect - it is a graveyard over an old life!

I decided to bury this blog to "enable" myself to start up a new life. Mona-Lisas´s death (link on this page) woke up so many sad feelings and memories of unterminated and sad things in my life, thoughts about how I want to live my life etc.

I am keeping the posts that are referred to in mails to friends and other "publications". If I have deleted too much - send me a mail. I have a backup. Mailaddress is:  britta (dot) bettina (at )yahoo(dot)com


The blog
The reasons why I started up blogging was I felt the urge to write and I wanted to improve my English. I started to write letters to myself and a handful of close friends. I will probably do that soon again - but then at a platform enabling IP blocking with .httaccess files or similar.

My businessblog will still be open for everyone - brittabettina.blogspot.com or bettinaba.wordpress.com . They are almost each others clone but Wordpress will contain more about my creative works.

I get back to my very much wanted visitors. I send you a mail or a note at Facebook or Twitter.

A walk among dead and living - pictures from Pilane burial grounds

At the ancient meadows - at a burial ground 1500 years old - world art is exhibited. Visited by thousands of people and some "native" sheeps. Bring your own coffee, some sandwiches and take a walk and enjoy something amazing. It will at least take you half a day. Walk with me and enjoy some pictures. First some facts though.

"There is a large number of stone formations still visible at Pilane burial ground at Tjörn in the county of Bohuslän, including fifteen majestic judgement circles with raised stones within a circle of round stones. These stone formations have been dated to the middle Iron Age, 0-600 A.D. [Source Riksantikvarieämbetet]

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Note!
I only have the copyright of the pictures - not the Art itself.

Weeping girls

And laughing boys.

The kids enjoyed interacting with art.

And so did  I :-)

Looking up I found this.

And down...

From this point there is a grandiose viewover the coastline. Impossible to take a picture of. It is too majestic and too overwhelming

Same motive as last year. Just less water, a totally different light and another perspective and context

There will be more pictures from this years exhibition. But not today - I have a special idea for those.

2009
Here comes some of my favourites from last year.
 

 

The great sphinx, my absolute fav. I miss that big white landmark. It was like a lighthouse in the countryside

The man of letters - shining bright in the sunshine. Hollow and shallow but still a man.

I hope you get an idea why you should visit Pilane burialgrounds at Tjörn summer 2010.

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Note! I only have the copyright of the pictures - not the Art itself.

The Rioja wine perspective

I´m purging, deleting, "backing up" and renewing old and new experience. The last old ones are in focus today.

Recently I have meet many old friends and I must tell - they age with grace. Some are more beautiful than ever. Some are more amusing then ever. Some have become real beauties and are aging with grace. Some have become distinguished gentelmens. And some have even improved their singing voices. The one I think of was great even before.

The spirits of my old friends are the same as once when they were young promising Bojelais Nouveau´s. And now they are turning into nice Rioja wines. Improving for every year.

And the bachata king has proved he IS The Bachataking. I love watching people improve. Epsecially when they are working really hard. It´s much more impressive than being a natural talent.

This weekend there will be one more reunions with old friends. I love it!

Do you want to be in my collection of memories deep down in the cave?

So now down in the bottle now! Hurry up!
Does it hurt? Well it is not my fault.
This is the procedure needed.
Keep your arms together.
There will be more air left for you if you stop struggling.
No do not kick back, down with you now!
Down I said!!!!

Paw, the bottle is corked now!
And now tapping down the stairs
to the basement.
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You see - you are not alone down there. You have good company and plenty of time to become a great wine or a really sour vinegar ;-)

Thanks old class mates, friends, salsafriends and business partners!

See you all soon!








Kjell Engman´s Contradictory,
exhibition summer 2009, in the rock shelter at Vattenfall's powerplant, Stenungsund

GIIIC - trettio år efter studenten

Högupplöst

Här är mina bildminnne av en underbar kväll. Min mun är fortfarande fastklistrad från öra till öra - stort leende. Jag skäms dock då jag ser att kvällen värdinnor inte finns med på mina bilder. Hoppas övriga festdeltagare tog bilder på dem.

TACK ALLA UNDERBARA GAMLA KLASSKOMPISAR FÖR EN UNDEBAR KVÄLL!

Jag förelår att huvudfotografen (Lenas son) lägger sina bilder ex. på Flickr ellr Picasa i ett album och att vi allihopa samlar ihop våra bilder och där. Med andra ord - någon får sätta upp konto och kommunicera ut lösenord och kontonamn. Om ingen annan anmäler sig så är väl "någon" jag eller Lenas pojk.

Skriv gärna kómmentarer!

Till den som förirrar sig vidare i denna blogg - jag har haft en ovälkommen besökare här tidigare som jag tror mig ha skrämt iväg nu. Jag är Ok.

I think I prefer not to understand

Why do we always struggle to understand? I wonder so.

Why can’t we just rest in the fact that some things are not understandable? Like where the universe stops? Why do so many people starve? Why is there such a thing as war? Or why do my kid wants homemade lunch for the day trip tomorrow instead of a prefabricated salad in a hygienically box?

I use to think that if you have a lot of observations and riddles in life you cannot make fit together – find a few possible solutions and then pick one. Be content with that choice. Never admit you chosed the wrong one. Stick to it and be happy! But today I cannot make such a choice. For a long while I haven’t been able to comprehend a few things in my life. I have been lost in my self and a mind drowning in lots of “whys” and “wonderings”. I haven’t been able to pick one solution and be happy with it.

A few days ago I picked up the coin, tossed it furiously up in the air and it landed with the other side up. And there it was. The solution. It had been there all the time - I just had been blindfolded to see it. The other side of the coin.

For the first time in my life I have come to a point where I resign. I will never understand and that is nothing bad. I lie happily - well almost - on my air mattress on the ocean of non-understanding and not comprehending. The weather is perhaps no the best but it will get warmer. It is calm and the sea gives peace in my mind. And the rippling waves makes my muscles relax.

There are things I will never understand and I finally accept I can live my life without it. I think it is better than locking my mind in something that is wrong. And I feel content about it…well mostly anyhow.

It is like when reading a big nice book. The journey is enough – I do not need to know the end of the saga. I do not need to understand every word, every course of events or every character of that book. With an open mind and a good author I do not need to rush. Like when I for the first time read Steinbeck’s “Sweet Thursday”. I cried when I finished that book.

If one day I find the answer myself…
I will never admit it to myself. I will keep it to myself and presume I have locked my mind into wrong conclusion. And I will be happy with that.

If one day anyone tells me the answer …
I will perhaps even refuse to accept it. Who knows – I can be damn stubborn.

If one day anyone can tell me the answer…
I´d like to have a choice - to listen or not to listen. Or else I might come to a point where the almost same amount of work has to be done once again. And I will simply not manage it once again.

Nevertheless – I think I wish to get that choice one day. In time. After a year. Or When I´m old and gray haired mama. Or in next life. Who knows. But not now. That is for sure. I simply cannot recalculate all informations once again. I think...

Until then – the day that probably never will come - the day I’m not waiting for - I stick to my air mattress and the ripples of the ocean. And I will be happy.

When I came home from work something really non-comprehendible was happening in my kitchen. Big kid was cooking American pancakes for dinner. And there was three times as much than needed. So lunch for tomorrow’s day trip is ready.

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Today 5 june I finally understood the true mening of what a Japanese koan is.

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Picture on top: Kjell Engman´s Contradictory

With eyes sensitive for green

Where did all the snow go? The snow I suspected would stay until midsummer. It's gone. Vanished. Totally. In just a few weeks winter turned into summer. A weekend hotter than last summer made me wonder - is this summer going to be as hot as last winter was cold? Have we moved to another latitude? Is that big ball called planet earth totally screwed?

For the moment I just enjoy and follow the path deep into the wood. I breathe. I smell. I hear the blackbirds and a hysterical thrush imitating  at least ten different birds. It makes me smile. Soundsample

My feets softly treads the soft moss.

I can taste the sour juice from lime coloured spine sprouts.

I can feel the soft and damp air caressing my cheeks.

The moment of sanctuary fills my whole body and mind.

With eyes sensitive for green …I proceed.